Two days to go and I’m already in a state of panic. Even tho I *know* intellectually this is the right decision for me, I’m still scared. Not that the operation will go wrong, all sorts of things may happen but I’m ok with that. I think it’s just the idea of not being able … More Almost Panic Time.

Obviously, the countdown is progressing at a hideously fast rate. Panic is still at the front and centre of my mind, but I’m still forcing myself onwards. Somehow I managed to lose weight yesterday, despite downing quite a large chunk of meat for lunch and a few Cruskits and hummus for dinner. I know I … More Three Days

Four days left to go and I’m finding it *really* hard to control my eating even for these last few days. Yesterday I went out with my wife for a short river cruise and then we went for lunch. I ate way too much. Got home in the evening already bloated from lunch… and ate … More Struggle Street.

Not saying much about yesterday. Yesterday was an utter disaster. I went out to Centrepoint Tower with the daughters as a final treat and ate so much meat I could hardly walk back to the car. I weighed after I came home… bad move… and I weighed again in the morning… not much of a … More Oh Dear Lord

I have to go the physio this morning. I also have to drop into the chemist for the stuff they told me to get. This includes Pico Prep… which I *hate*. The stuff tastes foul and the effects are as well. There are lists of instructions on what to do before the operation and what … More Seven Days to Go

Nothing much to report today. Walked around the local oval last night with the daughter and dogs until it rained. Got home and my daughter made a nice meal with steak and salad. Had a couple of slices of ham and turkey to go with it (slightly over the top but it was mostly protein). … More Bran Noo Dai.

Yesterday was a total disaster, I suddenly got ravenously hungry and ate almost whatever I could eat quickly and easily. Even in the middle of this food orgy I did try to restrict myself to appropriate food, but in greater quantities than I should have. I realised belatedly that I’d forgotten to take my Ozemoic, … More Yet More Madness

So yesterday was a disaster. My health was in dire starts with my eyes hurting, exhaustion crippling me, and had what I can only call ‘ill-ease’. Sleep at night was difficult and I had to sleep again during the day. In the end, I figured maybe I was just ‘starving’ so I let my guard … More It’s not funny.

Last night was a shocker. I got to bed at around 10:00, despite having been asleep on and off in the previous afternoon, and then woke, wide awake, at 1:50 a.m. and drifted in and out for the rest of the night finally waking properly at 5:15 a.m. I’m exhausted. To add to the misery, … More Sleep? Heard of that.

Bit of a problem really. Had my shake late, but in time to make me full. Had soup for dinner with a cuppa. So far so good. I’d even taken the dog for a walk… not too long, but long enough after yesterday Had an apple in the afternoon, and then it all went sideways. … More So…. today?