Wow time goes by so fast when you have nothing much to say. My weight has been fluctuating for the past week but I’ve just not felt like writing about it. Maybe I’m experiencing what others could call “Writer’s Block”.
The thing is that I’ve pretty much covered everything I need to say about the weight loss process even tho my journey is in no way completed. I get up, have breakfast, have a snack, have lunch, have a snack, have dinner…. rinse and repeat. The only variations have been when I’ve just eaten too much or too little.
The dietitian wants me to keep a food diary but I’m finding it tedious to do and to be frank, if I don’t do it immediately before or after I’ve eaten I quite literally forget about entering the data. Sometimes I miss breakfast, or the snacks, or have a really light lunch or dinner. It’s all too complicated to follow the rules.
I suppose when you come down to it I’m really just to old for all this. I wish I’d been a little more clued up about my body and been more willing to control my eating. There was a ‘golden period’ in which I was the right weight, was full of energy, and wore the right clothing. Sadly I neglected to maintain the feeling that I was ‘king of the world’ and let myself down badly.
Since then the weight, family issues and a hundred other things have led me down the path to a depression I can’t shift. I’ll never be 30, 40, or 50 again, and I doubt I could ever regain that level of fitness or happiness at being alive, but I can at least try to control one of them… hence continue losing the weight.
Well well… I wrote a whole page! Wonders will never cease.
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