Two days left before the surgery on Friday 27th and the stress is starting to build along with the ‘second thoughts’ about whether I’ll be able to cope afterwards… though of course, I’d have no choice *but* to cope afterwards.
So. Yesterday I succumbed to hunger and ate a carrot and a slice of turkey! Okay, not exactly a seven-course meal, but more than I wanted to have had. Whatever, I still managed to register a drop in weight from 149.7 kilos down to 148.40 kilos so despite the effort, it seems to have paid off. Makes me a bit guilty for not following the full ‘pre-op’ diet. Still, better to do it now than never. I hope it makes a difference to my liver.
Today, again, still starving. However, I’m hanging in there… admittedly only by a thread. I keep thinking of having a carrot as if it’s a delicacy which I think how desperate I’m getting.
Edit: I gave up. The thread broke. I ended up having a turkey sandwich and a whole punnet of not-quite-ripe strawberries… and I feel awful. I should have had the carrot when I needed it. Ah well, no point complaining, I did what I did and I have to live with it. So, just one day left and I seriously doubt I’ll be able to hold out again. Now what’s going to happen after the surgery?? It’s worrying me even more. 😦
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