Ok, I have *no* idea what’s going on with me. One day I’m ravenous, the next hardly hungry. Why? Who knows. Yesterday, for example, I had my morning shake, and then nothing until 1:30 or so when I went out with my wife to a local restaurant and had grilled Barramundi and salad before we went to a musical in the evening (in advance of my birthday next week as the surgery is on that day).
The thing is, I didn’t graze, browse or snack beforehand and I had nothing to eat afterwards! I got home at midnight and still didn’t do the usual scouring the fridge and cupboards for food. No hunger at all. Why? Well, that’s the $64,000 question! If I *knew* why I could be doing it all the time or would have done it from the start of this last month.
Whatever the reason my weight dropped overnight from its embarrassing high 0f 151.2 down to a slightly more respectable 149.4. Still far higher than I wanted but an improvement nonetheless. I still have six days left to do something and then… surgery!!
Am I scared? Hell yes. I still wake up in the middle of the night and question my sanity, but then I look in the bathroom mirror and understand clearly why I need to do *something* so drastic to improve my health. This point was also driven home quite pointedly when I found I was hardly able to force my bulk into the seat at the theatre. I got there, obviously, but it wasn’t as comfortable as it should have been and my stomach protruded significantly!!
Today will be another challenge. I’ll be going out again tonight, this time with my daughters, again for my birthday, and what will effectively be my last real meal. If we go to the restaurant we’ve been to in the past I’ll have an “Aussie Burger” which was really great the last time I was there! This time I’ll have to forgo the bun, but the remainder will be ok (I think). This means of course I can’t eat anything else *at all* until the evening meal. I’ll still be way over the daily calorie limit, but it’s the last time I’ll be able to do it for possibly three years or more… and even then I shouldn’t be able to finish the entire thing! (thank goodness for takeaway containers).
So there we are. Longer today than for the past few days, but with more to write about that’s the way it is. 🙂
Edit:
My drink of choice (to help me reach the 2-litre daily requirement) has been 110 ml of Coltees cordial diluted with 900 ml of cold water. I just realised that this isn’t the “sugar-free” variety so must be laced with a bucket load of sugar. This could account for my hunger pangs! As the sugar loading wears off I need another shot and will grab anything to satisfy it. Luckily there isn’t much of it left so I’ll carry on drinking it for now and see if I *can* cope without eating until 6 – 7 o’clock when (I assume) we’ll be eating. Going bowling first btw so I really have no idea when we’ll get to eat. If the hunger pangs *do* resurface, I’ll just have to buy sugar-free, or diabetic, cordial to help through the next 6 days or, of course, just drink plain water. 😀
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