Yesterday was a total disaster, I suddenly got ravenously hungry and ate almost whatever I could eat quickly and easily. Even in the middle of this food orgy I did try to restrict myself to appropriate food, but in greater quantities than I should have. I realised belatedly that I’d forgotten to take my Ozemoic, *and* yet again had forgotten my shake, either one of which (but better both) might have subdued the waves of hunger sufficiently for me to withstand them!
The craziness didn’t stop at night either. My daughter needed collecting from work at 11:00 so I got to bed late. And then my old dog (who is on his last legs – almost literally) who has ‘digestive issues’ in the form of tumours all over his insides (especially in an anal gland) wanted to go out, again, and again, and again. These excursions went on until at 2:30 I ‘gave up’ and left him outside for the remainder of the night. I needed sleep badly having already been exhausted for the past couple of days and craving my bed! I got up again at 6:45 when I woke up after finally hearing him scratch the door to be allowed back in.
So onwards to today. Weighed, luckily *no increase* from the day before (no idea why not) so am still 150 kilos. I finally showered, after several days, and mostly tidied myself up. The effort it took was ridiculous… still have no idea what’s wrong but I wondered if I was finally developing diabetes or if is it just some allergy to my meds. God knows but it’s hard to cope with!! Diabetes 2 Symptoms Increased thirst. Frequent urination. Increased hunger. Unintended weight loss. Fatigue. Blurred vision. Slow-healing sores. Frequent infections. I have at least 6 of them! Of course, they are symptoms of any number of other issues so no reason to get excited. 
Took my BP and discovered it is insanely low! 118/69 and my pulse was 74. What that means I don’t know but I’ll be keeping an eye on it for a few days and see where it goes.
Time moved on and away I went to see Dr. Brancatisano, the bariatric surgeon. That went well, and I came away with a pile of information and a confirmed date for the 29th Sept. A lot of me is still panicking and wondering if this really is the right decision, but I keep telling myself I really **need** to lose this weight and that even the last two days have shown me just how impossible it is for me to stick to any normal diet, so buyer’s regret or not… I have to go ahead, and at the end, that’s all there is to it.
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