I’ve been so tired these past few days I can’t sleep! Bit of a paradox I know but it’s true all the same, or certainly feels that way. I get to bed around 9:30 – 10:00 at night, then wake several times through the night and find it hard to drop back off. Then I wake at 6:30 a:m, get up to feed the dog, have my shake and a cup of tea… then by 8:30 or so I’m so tired I have to go back to bed where I lay half asleep for an hour so then get back up feeling as bad as when I lie down!
This is probably a ‘side-effect’ of the diet which is supposed to induce Ketosis, but it’s hard to cope with. The associated headaches aren’t doing me any favours either! I have to do *some* housework or the place will fall apart but it’s hard to motivate myself to get on with it. Maybe if my bathroom scales were working I could see some weight loss happening and that would get me to shift myself. There’s a set on order but I’m not sure when they’ll arrive.
On the support pages, I see people rambling on about the exercise they do while still on the pre-op diet and I wonder how the hell they can do it! I find it hard to do *anything* let alone additional exercise. Of course, I was already built like a couch potato because the weight and depression were holding me back, which after all is a large part of wanting to diet. I hope, but can’t be certain, that once the weight starts to fall off I’ll be more inclined to exercise because I’ll be more able to. It ought to take the weight off my hip and knee joints as well which alone should make me more willing and able to move. I suppose it’s something I’ll have to just hope for.
Again, whether this will actually be true after the op is something that does concern me but unfortunately it’s only experience that will provide the answer. On a theme, I’m still wondering if my wife could be right and I could, should, defer the operation and see if can keep this diet going for another few months. If I *could* do it maybe it would save a lot of pain, heartache… and money! I only have 16 days left to make that final decision. Right now, ambivalent or not, I’m telling myself to go for it because prior experience with diets has told me I simply can’t, or won’t stay the course.
Edit: I fell asleep four times today and I’m still exhausted. I thought this may be a side effect of not eating as much as I should, even according to the diet. So basically, I ate properly for the first time in weeks having had both morning *and* lunchtime shakes with a salad for lunch. Tonight, if I can, I intend to have a cup of stir fry veg and 100 grams of cooked chicken (pre-cooked weight) and see if this helps me sleep. Update in the next post.
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